Fuck you and your extremelyunfairwayofbeingunnatainableandmakingmehatemyselfsoleyfornothavingyou
I’m a stubborn bitch. I know. Trust me. I know. I can be a total cunt sometimes. I’m hard to deal with, and bitchy, and really really fucking opinionated. When I think I’m right, you can’t tell me I’m wrong. And those are all flaws. You’re somebody that I don’t want to lose. And I admit that you drive me entirely INSANE at times. But then others I’m remind why I love you, and what an amazing friendship we used to have. In all honesty it’s dwindled and now it’s hard to see. Now I can’t promise that I won’t snap at you if you say something hurtful, (also just know if I snap at you it’s probably because I’m hurt. Because believe it or not I take your opinion seriously.) also, side note, I know that we’ve both changed. And I feel like we don’t quite know the new us, so we continue to base perceptions of each other on how we used to be. But people change. That’s what they do. They learn and they become better people. Now don’t take this the wrong way, im not apologizing for who I am a person. Because like it or not I can’t change THAT MUCH. But apologizing isn’t fun. Ever. We’re both just a little too stubborn to do it. So I’m thinkin we can both just say fuck it, and go to sweet spot this weekend, and eat a fucking cupcake and get to know the knew us. Because as you know , I love you like crazy. And in any person you love, irritating flaws arise. But cupcakes just make happy things happen.
So in short, what I AM saying, is that we’re different. And we’re no longer used to each other. But that shan’t go on any longer! (Oliver referred to cut off shorts as shants today and I could NOT stop laughing. Just btw.) I love you. And I’m not ok with losing our relationship over some stupid bullshit, and I apologize for being a cunt (which i tend to be at times). I intend to know you forever. I need my other half back.
If my darling fell into the ocean, if my darling fell into the sea, my darling I’d jump in and save you. Cause without you? There’s no me.
There is a joyful world full of happy screams and laughter and warm kisses that put your heart in your throat and touches that make your skin crawl In anticipation and eyes that sparkle so brightly and so fondly that it takes your breath away and reminds you that the world holds love so tenderly. These worlds are held in people, and stuck in time.
And I’ve lost it.
We’re just two poor souls trying to kiss each other better.Hana Desjardins hellomynameishatred